28 March 2011

full of the flu!

i've been ill for like 8 days with the god dam flu all this week so its been early nights and medicine for me, due to my work circumstances i wasnt able to have any days off so ive been suffering in silence at my desk with my hot water bottle and beechams. boo hoo.
but.. in the hope that i feel better within 5 hours, i went out to kissy sell out at sankeys on friday aswell which hasn't helped me being ill. my friend jordan counsel played upstairs in spektrum which was urrrmazing, we left shortly after that because the music/atmosphere downstairs was shit!

also really dissapointed in my new mac  foundation. i found that it's is quite orangey and felt very sweaty after a few hours and it goes on like a paste. it also transfers onto everything! i was on the phone before, looked at my screen. it was covered in foundation.. not about it. in my opionion.. don't fix whats not broken! bobbi browns foundation has been loyal to me for 3 years now and is perfect.. why did i change?! it's the perfect consistancy, stays on all day without getting that sliding feeling and is so blendable!
so i went back to bobbi brown and the lady wiped off all my fake tan and matched the foundation to my natural skin tone. not cool, wish i never threw away my old bottle coz i dont know what shade it was. WOUNDED
i'm not blogging till im feeling better.

20 March 2011

broken nose... its your time to shine!

Shirt - Newlook  Necklace - H&M  Blazer - Topshop  Bag - Primark  Leggings - H&M
shoppping trip today! yessssss
i'm bought some birthday presents for some friends and fam, a bit of topshop jewellery, some new mac make up and a make up bag. i also had a eyebrow wax and tint :') 
i feel like i'm coming down with a cold tho, so i just didnt want to be there! was so glad to get home.
i went to liverpool on saturday too, checked out my halls. p e r f e c t! more than what i wanted, absolutely central location. i could roll out of bed onto a train its that fucking central. so i just need to get them confirmed, then do my student finance, then were rockin and rollin! the premium suite that i'll be renting in the halls is well sweeet. the bedroom is bigger than mine now! proper proper excited.

we all know our camera angles, and what works for our face and body right, and i ALWAYS have my picture taken with my face angled to the left. well today i have taken my pictures from the right! my nose is a diferent shape on this side from when i broke it when i was a kid. ever since i have hiden it away from picture moments in utter wonky shame. well those days are over. this is my nose! i don't care anymore! 

i will have a blog read marathon tommorow at work! can't wait!
bye ladys! xxxxx
p.s the only way is essex tonight yeeeeeee

16 March 2011




*my friend in australia has just told me that he found a pair and if i paypal him 98 aud then he will buy me a pair and mail them to me. AMAZING. CHEERS!

15 March 2011

ahhh the smell of fresh grass!

all of the above are from river island, funnily enough, everything here is brown! totally  unintentional.. but don't they all look lovely together? :)
none of them i can buy however as i have lots of birthday presents to shop for! i have so many little ideas buzzing around my little brain.. because i absolutely love buying people gifts! i spend SO MUCH TIME internet shopping..
i'm really stuck on what to by my dad and his fiance as both their birthdays are soon. any ideas? they are modern late 40's with love for wine, classical music and cooking. serious difficult people to buy for! i've already booked theatre tickets for us all to go to the theatre but i'm stuck on actual presents!
OH MY GODDDD. i posted all my ebay items to the buyers as i recently sold alot of clothes.. and to my horror. i sent a denim skirt to a man who wanted the denim shirt and the denim shirt to the girl that wanted the denim skirt! i am actually a pleb. i shouldnt be allowed to sell things to people. god knows what everybody else has recieved! luckily they both saw the funny side
i have good news though! my blackberry is in the mail and will be at my house within 3 days! amazing. i have suffered with this old shit samsung that doesnt let me swear in text messages! i miss my blackberry messenger and my emails! oh goddd. come back to me bb baby!
i also.. ACCEPTED MY OFFER AT LIVERPOOL! and i'm in the process of sorting my accomodation. a smoking, all girls, double en-suite deluxe! BOOM! i'm actually a bit excited.. arrrrrrrrhhhh this is seriously happeninggg!
ideas for dad and fiances presents greatly appreciated!
have a lovely day chickens!

14 March 2011

is that summer on its way?


these are from big al's 21st birthday that i went to on saturday night,  the taxi drivers 70 point turn in the road was so funny on the way there. me kaylie hannah and leah were all giggleing which only put pressure on him and made him stall and bang off the kerb like 3 times. felt SO SORRY for him.
i had my hair down aswell.. i don't like having my hair down because my hairs not the length i want it to be so i feel a bit self concious.. but i braved it! i think in about two months i'll be comfortable wearing it down on a daily basis.. it just has to get past this awkward length!

i'm in a real nice state of mind at the moment, i think i've got over the initial fear of moving to liverpool at the moment and i'm in a content.. yes i can do this mentality. i am coming out of my shell a bit more and doing more social things because i'm back to having money which is nice. plus the sun is shining and my drive to work was warm and happy with my new cd on..

i'm having a quiet weekend in this week followed by two mad sankeys weekends.. absoultely can't wait for them to be honest.. and i'm going to the gym as much as i can this week as my spa weekend with my boyfriend in 2 weeks and 6 days and i want to look as bumtingz as possible! heeeelloooo shexy weekend! ahahaha
hope you all had a chilled weekend
p.s got my first parking ticket on saturday. not cool. that 35 pound would of been nice.

09 March 2011

i'd like some huge cuddles please

hat - river island  snood - topshop  cardigan - berksha  shirt - newlook  bag - topshop  ring - H&M

urg. so much for pancake day, for some reason i must be cursed.. i havn't ate pancakes on pancake day in years.
had a really miserable day, ate a tesco sushi pack for my dinner and a boots meal deal for my tea as i went to my nana's and just grabbed something quick to take. still sticking to my healthy eating though.. snacking on fruit is so boring but whatever.. it keeps me off biscuits and cake bars.
also feeling totally bleugh today so i put my cuddly cardigan on and my snood which always make me feel better. comfort thing?
bring on the weekend... i need some best friend cheering up, cheesy music and some wine wine wine.
p.s ive been bullied into getting twitter so @jesskiwi is obviously the way forward
pp.s i'm such a moany moo today! sorry x

07 March 2011


dress - primark  heels - newlook   belt - topshop  necklace - topman 
hello sweeties,
i have a feeling this is going to be quite a deep post. the news about me getting into liverpool is very exciting and very scary. its made me quite anxious about my future though! since leaving university i have got into a very cosy bubble of having my car, my job, money, my friends nearby, nights out, my boyfriend on tap, my family and my house, stableness and safety..
and if i choose to go to liverpool then all of those things get jiggled and my bubble gets popped! suddenly i'm feeling very vunerable in a whole new place with no job, no friends nearby and new... everything!
but. it's something i'm going to have to do though, i need to do this for me!

my last experience moving out into halls was awful. i hated my housemates after a few months and found it very hard to cope with how messy they were. the kitchen was disgusting all the time and the cleaners never cleaned it and we had to share a bathroom which was moldy and slimey. this time i want to spend a bit extra and get all the comforting things.. like an en-suite! and a double bed! drooolll... i'm going to be well away from home so i cant go running back in tears. this has to be done properly! as i'm very fragile and don't do well with these things... and i cry at everything.

my friend gave me some amazing advice about this, she said to me that you can't live your life for other people, and the best of them will be there for you no matter where you are. which is completely true, because shes down in london and i'm still here for her! i know that my friends and my relationship will change a little, but hopefully not too much! thats life, things come up and you have to adapt to it and just roll with it. this is going to be a huge test though for me as a person.. bring on the trumpets!
anybody done this? advice needed girls!

05 March 2011

celebration night!!

blouse - boohoo  jeans - topshop  horse pin - gift
hello my loves
hell yeah i did! over. the. moon. so it looks like my future has pretty much been decided which is a little bit.. a lot a bit scary!!
i went to ikea today and bought some new lovely bedding and some photoframes.. and i have this really massive obbsession with cuddly toys and when i found this huge kangaroo teddy.. i just had to cuddle it all the way round ikea! it was twenty quid so obviously i wasnt going to buy it (i already have a 3ft unicorn in my bed from an incident last year in makro..) do i need help? does anybody else still treasure their teddy bears? ahaha

going out tonight with lozzy! don't know where were going.. hopefully i wont loose my shit replacement phone in the taxi. blackberry I MISS YOU. it would be a huge kick in the arse if i lose the other one tonight... but a night of antics is happening tonight! nights out with loz are few and far between and we always get into trouble when we're out! i remember the hilarious night at tiger tiger when we were marched out of the club by the bouncers and thrown into the street! i'm pretty sure we we fell asleep on the sofa inside tho.. not exactly hardcore.. hahahaha

how funny is that new show friday night dinner? i fucking love it, right up my street!
enjoy your saturday night kids!


03 March 2011


top - topshop  chinos - zara  leather jacket - H&M  scarf - vintage  necklace - topshop

defo in need of an outfit post! i've been on lates at work this week so by the time ive got in and cooked my tea it's that late that i just want to put my pjammies on and snuggle up on the sofa!
i watched that peaches geldof OMG this morning that i recorded from last night, it was alright i guess. a bit stretched out with somebits questionable to why anyone would even give a shit? i felt a bit sorry for the vampire girl that drank her own blood on tv with an audience full of people looking at her like wtf?  but peaches geldof can be funny and her boyfriend is a sexy model so.. whatevz shes cool.
my outfit today was inspired by somebody i saw in sankeys at the weekend, is that a bit creepy? id never think to wear chino's in a club, somehow it worked!
cant wait for the weekend, which starts early as i have tommorow off! it's my MMU interview tommorow which i'm reallllly nervous about! the course ive applied for looks amazing so fingers crossed i do alright. andddd, then i'm going to my boyfriends friday night and saturday were spending the day together. then going out with loz on saturday night and sunday i'm going round to kaylies! i'm hoping her sis will cut my dead ends off while i'm there to :)

oh my godddd! i went to the cinema last night with my boyfriend to watch paul, what a good film! just one of those films that you have nothing bad to say about and not much of an opinion.. just a good film! i ate a full box of popcorn to myself aswell, oops. i just remember putting my hand in the box ALOT.
have a good weekend everyoneee
p.s i miss my biscuit stash at work :( i'm hungry!
pp.s that picture is not supposed to be aimed at my bum! but the pants are really hard to photograph without me looking really wide and i'm not having a very self confident day today! sorry!